I mentioned that we often see wildlife on our daily evening walk. A few days ago, I had a staredown with this guy and it pretty much stopped me in my tracks.
It reminded me of one of my favorite chapters in the Bible.
As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, my God.
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?
My tears have been my food
day and night,
while people say to me all day long,
“Where is your God?”
These things I remember
as I pour out my soul:
how I used to go to the house of God
under the protection of the Mighty One[d]
with shouts of joy and praise
among the festive throng.
Why, my soul, are you downcast?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.
My soul is downcast within me;
therefore I will remember you
from the land of the Jordan,
the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.
Deep calls to deep
in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your waves and breakers
have swept over me.
By day the Lord directs his love,
at night his song is with me—
a prayer to the God of my life.
I say to God my Rock,
“Why have you forgotten me?
Why must I go about mourning,
oppressed by the enemy?”
My bones suffer mortal agony
as my foes taunt me,
saying to me all day long,
“Where is your God?”
Why, my soul, are you downcast?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.
Psalm 42
I am reminded that "mourning" or anxiety or the attitude of being downcast is a choice. When instead I choose to put my hope in God and praise Him, everything changes... for the better... in my heart.
PS - It was exactly four years ago that Brandon and I had our engagement portrait session by the waterway in Frederick, MD. It was pretty, romantic and (yes) there was kissing. Because we love each other. Still love each other... and there's still lots of kissing... but anyway, see the photos here!